LET ME TELL YOU SUMPTIN

8/22/2008 11:35:46 PM

ehehehe

8/22/2008 11:36:08 PM

GIRL WILL YOU FUCK TONIGHT

SUCK THE DICK.... LET ME LICK THE CLIT?

8/22/2008 11:36:17 PM

I'm guessing by your silence that I'm done.

That's ok, but I guess I'd like some closure.

this is hard to do, but I guess I need it.... if for anything for myself.

after the air show, I had made an effort to let you make the next contact in order to judge your interest... and when it didnt happen, I have my answer...

I dont know.. I just feel like this went about all wrong... all wrong.

The last thing I want, is to sound like that email you forwarded me, I'm not that person, I'm not that desperate.

However, I don't feel as if you've really seen who i am, or what I have to offer for you.

Ever since we were officemates, I've had something for you... something I never thought I'd have.

A few weeks ago, when we went to the explosions in the sky show, I was so happy, with the possibility of having you.. Even that night, you gave me this look that made me feell...... right.

Thats a hard thing to explain, but it just felt right.

i explicitly remember, i said something... you were standing there, and looking down... and you turned your head up, and looked at me with this look that made me feel wonderful. I quasi pride myself on being able to read people, and I thought I had read soemthing that made me feel really good... good about maybe there was a chance that you'd like to explore something with me, in the way i wanted to explore you.

I didn't want to show you this, and I think I may have been a bit deceptive in a way that was prorbably detrimental to beginning something with you.... I intentionally tried to make it seem as if..... maybe that I wasn't that interested.. i dont know...

i was just excited, and you're everyhting I want, need, and think I deserve.... i didn't want to blow it, or have you think that I was too desperate or too into you.... I didnt want to scare you off...

this was probably the wrong approach, and i see that now.. you didn't recieve everything that I should have done in order to attempt to try and be with you.

i've been looking for someone like you for a long time...

people like you are hard to come by... people whom have all the traits i desire to be

you're amazingly beautiful, have a work ethic im envious of, are incredibly intelligent, have a great job, a square head on your shoulders, know what you want and how to get it, and all of those other cliches that happen to be excatly what ive been on the search for for over a year.

i dont know.. i know this sounds really weak.. and that 's not who i am..

ive just been broken in the past, and have realized exactly what it is that I want, need, and what it is that that feel liek i am entitled to.

i just kind of feel like i didn't really have a fighter's chance and that I kind of made that bed for myself.

i know that you've been absurdly stressed with work, and i understand that... really i do.. you know that if anyone understands that it's me...

what I also understand is whatever happenend when you went back to psu.

you know i was really involved with erin while i was in school, and if i went home and there was a chance with her, i'd take it, every time. about 18 months ago, she knew that I was tking this job here, and there was no chance i was staying in north carolina... she also did not take my offer to get her a job for dupont, and move up here with me, and that was devastating for me. if your thing was antying like what I had, then I compltely am at ease with you wanting to explore every possibility with that... i really am.

but that's neither here nor there.

i dont know

but what i do know is that this makes me sound pretty goddamned lame and pretty hurt, but thats not me at all.


all i know is that

the other night when you were burning the nine inch nails cd, and i was sitting behind you, on your bed.. something happened.

you were looking at the screen, and i was watching you through the mirror... you had this look on your face.. the whole scene made me smile inside in a way i havent done so in a long, long time. the light on your face in the reflection was just so perfect... and the semismile you had while you intently loooked at the screen was so goddamned cute that it made something in me feel just a-ok with my life.

ill remember that.

i just dont know.

i'm so confused with where i am in everything im doing right now that I dont know what it is that i'm going for by even writing this, why i wrote it, or what i hoped it to accomplish.. but i guess i had just hoped that i might get some closure to this whole thing.

if anything, i'd hate hate hate to loose you again for another few years.. i mean, we have great fun together, and if you can stand to go to my garbage shows then that says something in my book . i'd like to keep up enought o grab regular beers and keep exchanging cds in the least.

but

im kinda fuckign drunk and need to chair a meeting at 8, so, if i talk to you i talk to you.

8/22/2008 11:37:00 PM

SEEEEEE THAT RING I WON THIS YEAR

[Edited on August 22, 2008 at 11:40 PM. Reason : ..]

8/22/2008 11:38:33 PM

Lol, <3 you and this thread, Emce.

8/22/2008 11:40:24 PM

emily

8/22/2008 11:42:09 PM

BITCH PLEASE!

8/22/2008 11:45:57 PM

8/23/2008 12:07:25 AM

Lovin some of the faces I've been getting from football candids.

8/23/2008 12:09:13 AM

back atcha. How's NY treating you?

8/23/2008 12:09:42 AM

oh, NY is ok I guess. It's a bit slower than what I'm used to, but I'm making the best of it. I don't see myself being here for more than a few years

8/23/2008 12:20:22 AM

SHES THE KIND OF GIRL YOU WANT SO BAD IT MAKES YOU SORRY

STILL YOU DONT REGRET A SINGLE DAY

AHHH

...

8/23/2008 12:21:12 AM

don't make fun of kobe

8/23/2008 12:23:44 AM

Yeah, I don't know if I could do a small town (especially after spending the summer in NYC). I'm very happy to be back in Raleigh (mostly for the people). But once December comes around and I have a degree, I'll be heading back to a big city I hope.

8/23/2008 12:23:49 AM

good luck to you

I'll probably be down to visit

8/23/2008 12:33:30 AM

lol at this thread

8/23/2008 1:14:50 AM

i was all like..."did EMCE just call my name?"

8/23/2008 2:11:05 AM

8/23/2008 9:50:30 AM

this thread made me chuckle.

8/23/2008 9:52:00 AM

LOLOL first post 10/10

thread 3/10

8/23/2008 9:53:12 AM

GIRL YOU KNOW IT'S
GIRL YOU KNOW IT'S

GIRL YOU KNOW IT'S

GIRL YOU KNOW IT'S

GIRL YOU KNOW IT'S

GIRL YOU KNOW IT'S

GIRL YOU KNOW IT'S

8/23/2008 9:53:17 AM

thought it was gonna say


youll be a womannnn soooonnn

8/23/2008 10:32:10 AM

Quote :

"im kinda fuckign drunk and need to chair a meeting at 8, so, if i talk to you i talk to you."

worst ending to a sappy desperate love letter EVER!

8/23/2008 10:38:06 AM

8/23/2008 1:37:33 PM

that first pic made me lol

8/23/2008 1:38:20 PM

roffle

8/23/2008 1:46:36 PM

^^^^^me too!

8/23/2008 1:51:28 PM

I'm happy that people can come into my threads and feel comfortable

8/23/2008 1:53:35 PM

i'm so comfortable i slid out of my panties

8/23/2008 1:54:09 PM

just....just stop hitting on me

I have a girlfriend

8/23/2008 2:02:48 PM

yep she's sleeping on the couch next to me.

8/23/2008 2:04:43 PM

Hot Myspace Comments / Myspace Graphics

8/23/2008 2:19:01 PM

I'm in love with EMCE.

8/23/2008 6:58:48 PM

Bridget, I'm not going to let you walk back into my life now

I'm bitter over you leaving me before

8/23/2008 8:53:28 PM

thought this thread was about this song:

08-juelz_santana-make_it_work_for_you_(feat_lil_wayne_and_young_jeezy)

8/23/2008 8:57:04 PM

nice one

8/24/2008 7:14:50 PM

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PwGLJk_bySc

8/24/2008 7:18:05 PM