for medical-related issues lol

my doctor kind of skimmed over half of the issues I've been having recently so.. apparently I have to fend for myself completely in this life since even my doctor doesn't care to help me

I find the idea dismally sad though. talking to artificial intelligence

several years ago I wouldn't have - I would have thought it's cool. like I'm totally all about having a robot AI wife, and probably still would be

but just for casual conversation and advice.. IDK I feel like I'm hitting a new low somehow. am I? am I overthinking it?

let me know your thoughts in the replies below

12/22/2025 10:23:41 PM

I just really like.. I can't do life lol

the more I try to understand, and think about things, and do things, the less I seem to understand

and the less I feel able to do those things

therapy isn't going to help lol. it might make a small dent, but that's not enough to change my personality. like I'm basically just stuck being like I am. I'm trying little by little to improve some aspects of my life. I've lost maybe 8 pounds in the last couple of months. trying to exercise some, and work my brain out as much as I can with reading or other activities that involve using your brain more

I just always feel like things are getting worse and worse. I mean they are, aren't they? there's literally nothing good about getting older that I'm aware of

getting older is cool when you're 12 and you want to be 18 I guess, but past that point, all you have to look forward to is compounding health, social and economical issues

the more I feel like I'm figuring out, the more variables keep being thrown at me and I am just unable to keep up. I feel like I'm buckling under the pressure lately, but I understand that I truly am alone in doing things

like people can say "you're not alone, you can get help"

but nobody gives a shit about you if they aren't in your family lol

therapy is bullsh*t as far as I'm concerned. maybe it works for stupid people IDK. and I understand it's good to have a support system, but at the end of the day, you go to your home and therapists are off doing their thing and don't give a shit

same with doctors

people just seem to care less and less about everything. we live in such a weird time

social media just makes us less social to those around us (though, in fairness, that's kind of been going on before social media too, it just appears to be slightly worse)

I'm starting to crave more of a sense of community, but I'm not a churchgoer (not against it.. I can see why people appreciate that as a community, and a lot of times they do great things for their local residents in need) and I'm not a drinker, so going to the bars isn't doing it. but what else is there to do in rural america?

and then when you get to the big cities, there are more options of things to do, but there is not always a sense of community there, either

I feel like I don't fit in anywhere I feel like I have good intentions, and I am generally likable, but people still don't seem to want to be around me. maybe it's just bc they're into their own things, IDK. maybe I just had friends a long time ago that suck. I want to reconnect with people but they seem basically uninterested

TWW is indeed a weblog


tl;dr - I have never figured out how to do life, and the more I try to learn, the less I seem to understand

12/22/2025 10:33:38 PM

Maybe you need a fresh start somewhere else

12/22/2025 10:51:34 PM

In the thread “I’ve resorted to talking to ChatGPT,” a user named BubbleBobble opens up about feeling frustrated and alone after medical issues were dismissed by their doctor. They express discomfort with relying on artificial intelligence like ChatGPT for conversation and advice, saying it feels like a “new low,” even though they once thought having an AI companion would be fun. The user goes on to describe a deeper struggle with life and personal understanding, saying that the more they try to improve themselves, the worse they feel. They share that therapy and doctors haven’t helped and convey a sense of isolation, noting that people seem increasingly uncaring and that social media worsens social connections. They also talk about craving community but not fitting in anywhere — not in rural areas, not in cities, and not socially — which leaves them feeling detached and alone.

Damn dude, this sounds kinda bad. You should like destroy all your devices and just chill at the park all the time

12/22/2025 10:57:53 PM

Quote :

"Maybe you need a fresh start somewhere else"

I do need some kind of change for sure. but I've always been hesitant to change, and unfortunately as I feel like my clock is ticking faster as we're getting older, the feeling is persistent and kind of keeping me in place

I think I might have to set a tangible goal like.. if I can't stand where I am by the time I'm 50, I will relocate or change jobs or something. like I have to fucking do something

a lot of people have wives or family to kind of push them in certain directions, but I don't really have that. and what few friends I have also aren't really making my life changes their priority so.. like I was complaining about, it's all going to be up to me. and if it's up to me and me alone, I'll never change unless forced to

I wish I could focus. like I feel like I'm almost as smart as I used to be, but having bipolar disorder and having been a long time weed user (amongst other problems, I imagine), I can't always be at 100%, or even near it. like one day I'll be able to retain information and read and learn stuff and be like "whoa, this is nice" and then the next day I'm like LOL TIME TO KMS and just can't even bring myself to do anything at all. fucking tired of it. where's my magic fix-all pill?

12/22/2025 11:06:05 PM

Quote :

"Damn dude, this sounds kinda bad. You should like destroy all your devices and just chill at the park all the time"

but then how will I be able to check in with my inebriated n intoxicated homeboy on TWW?

12/22/2025 11:08:09 PM

Communicating with me isn't as important as your mentals bro

Like i said in the thread like a month ago, you need some poontang

[Edited on December 22, 2025 at 11:10 PM. Reason : Unless you are homosexual. Then you need butthole? Or is it dick? Unsure]

12/22/2025 11:09:52 PM

poontang generally comes with problems that I don't want to deal with attached tho :3

I sure do want to do some carpet munching though I miss that so so jafdsjdfsa oijsfda SO MUCH LOL

idk where to meet people. this kind of ties in with my whole rural area and not being able to meet people thing

I would need a perfect match. not a perfect girl, but a perfect match for me. and that's going to be stupidly unlikely to find

fuck a dating app lol. and besides, who can beat anime girls? certainly not real ones

12/22/2025 11:14:58 PM

I do need a woman's butthole though for sure

absolutely

I'm too much of a liability for any woman at this point though lol. and that's fair

12/22/2025 11:15:39 PM