i was about to cry when rashad got knocked out

5/24/2009 10:47:17 AM

I almost cried when i read dude's text message

5/24/2009 10:55:04 AM

I know that in 10 years my priorities will probably all change and I may want different things, but I'm happy where things might be now.

5/24/2009 1:57:59 PM

saw my second hummingbird of the year...looked like a male

5/24/2009 2:11:04 PM

third time i've seen a hummingbird this year

5/25/2009 6:09:35 PM

every time i go home i don't ever won't to leave...

and i wish i had appreciated it more when i was actually there

5/25/2009 9:36:33 PM

outside of ordering food, i haven't spoken to anyone in 3 days.

fml

5/25/2009 9:48:26 PM

i would die if i didn't interact with people for that long.

well maybe not die

but i would definitely be a little antsy.

luckily i have no problems conversing with my cat and inanimate objects

5/25/2009 9:54:45 PM

My favorite thing to do is kiss my dog

5/25/2009 9:55:49 PM

most days, i would rather sit by myself in my apartment than try to go out and be social.

i'm to the point of social awkwardness where i went to dinner with just my sisters and felt out of place....

[Edited on May 25, 2009 at 10:06 PM. Reason : helps if i use words]

5/25/2009 9:59:16 PM

you're doing it wrong

5/25/2009 10:04:18 PM

me too...I'm back in Raleigh for a few days, and have actually been avoiding this one really good friend I used to have, because I don't feel like putting forth the effort to renew the friendship. But he caught me on Facebook chat today and we made plans to go see a movie or something tomorrow. But it feels like an obligation.

5/25/2009 10:04:37 PM

go...you might miss out on a great friend if you don't

trust me when i say you need to value every possible friendship you can have....because they can be snatched away in a heartbeat if you don't

5/25/2009 10:07:09 PM

without getting into a pity party, let me just say that the older you are the harder it gets.

5/25/2009 10:07:24 PM

^^ agreed, just wish there were lessons in how not to be awkward and out of place in social situations

but i guess that's life

5/25/2009 10:08:17 PM

^^^emo

[Edited on May 25, 2009 at 10:08 PM. Reason : ^^]

5/25/2009 10:08:18 PM

I mean...some good advice given to me was "dude, just get drunk and don't give a fuck"

now, I'm not necessarily saying drink alcohol. I'm just saying, put the inhibition aside, and enjoy yourself

5/25/2009 10:09:21 PM

getting drunk and not giving a fuck has gotten me into a lot of trouble in the past

it's fun, but... yeah

5/25/2009 10:11:18 PM

i really want to quit my job

and i might

5/25/2009 10:11:25 PM

haha, drinking usually causes troubles for me - one or two are fine.... too many and i say/do stupid things

5/25/2009 10:12:02 PM

uhhh...that's what alcohol does to everybody

5/25/2009 10:12:53 PM

I'm not telling you guys to drink
I'm tell you all to learn to set your fears and inhibitions aside

5/25/2009 10:14:34 PM

drinking works wonders, but as a rule, i try not to drink alone.

5/25/2009 10:14:53 PM

well yes, i'd just like to not royally fuck good things i've got going right now

5/25/2009 10:14:57 PM

ok ok ok, within reason

5/25/2009 10:16:09 PM

at least for me I acquired a lot of inhibition as a result of realizing that my uninhibited action does not fall neatly within societal expectations and tends to alienate people

generally I have to get to know people and discover what their expectations are before I feel comfortable saying much

sorry to tangent-jack, but it's an interesting discussion lol

5/25/2009 10:17:47 PM

^ that's certainly an interesting approach

5/25/2009 10:18:30 PM

I love what I do.

5/25/2009 10:23:12 PM

i can't even blame alcohol for fucking up most things in my life

5/25/2009 10:23:55 PM

^^^it's not really an approach

it takes a good, long while for me to make friendships as I pretty much wait for a coincidental revelation of character before communicating at any depth

my hit rate with common interests is astronomically low, and it's hard to build a friendship on the shared experience of weather lol

[Edited on May 25, 2009 at 10:25 PM. Reason : ^]

5/25/2009 10:25:07 PM

If I only drank with other people, that'd eliminate 80-90% of my drinking

5/25/2009 10:30:58 PM

Quote :

" getting drunk and not giving a fuck has gotten me into a lot of trouble in the past"

Quote :

"at least for me I acquired a lot of inhibition as a result of realizing that my uninhibited action does not fall neatly within societal expectations and tends to alienate people"

Quote :

"it takes a good, long while for me to make friendships as I pretty much wait for a coincidental revelation of character before communicating at any depth my hit rate with common interests is astronomically low, and it's hard to build a friendship on the shared experience of weather lol"

wow, man, this could have been me writing all this...I feel ya pain

5/25/2009 10:52:31 PM

i bet there's a lot of people on here who are like that.... posting on a message board, where a good number of people don't know you, is much easier than going out and talking to people face to face

5/25/2009 10:53:26 PM

truth

5/25/2009 10:54:48 PM

<- guilty





[Edited on May 25, 2009 at 10:57 PM. Reason : .]

5/25/2009 10:55:51 PM

5/25/2009 10:57:10 PM

I saw a nasty accident and the dead body today, and I had no emotional response at all.

5/25/2009 11:02:23 PM

i don't even put forth the social effort to talk to people online anymore


it's just gotten to be so much energy

5/25/2009 11:02:35 PM

^^

blame the lithium

lol

5/25/2009 11:05:54 PM

I want a good confession damn it

5/25/2009 11:09:40 PM

I have killed over 100 animals

5/25/2009 11:11:18 PM

I have a great admiration for Hitler (his oratory, his rise to power, his statecraft and diplomatic triumphs) which the Holocaust cannot gainsay. I know it's despicable, but I can't help liking the man.

Probably if I were Jewish I would feel differently.

5/25/2009 11:21:49 PM

The other day I tested to see whether or not I could shoot myself with my rifle (ie, whether I could put the barrel in my mouth and still reach the trigger).

I don't actually want to kill myself, but in case zombies are ever at the door, I want to know that I can do it to spare myself the unending torment of the undead.

So I guess basically my confession is, "I spend way too much time worrying about zombies"

5/25/2009 11:25:45 PM

im attracted to mental fuck-ups
which might explain why i masturbate so much

5/25/2009 11:27:46 PM

Apocalypse, you and I should hang out.

5/25/2009 11:28:28 PM

I knew it wasn't going anywhere long term, but I'm still pissed to not be dating her any more just because her friend had to be all like "well what the hell do ya'll even have in common?".

I already miss sex again

5/25/2009 11:28:31 PM

"Apocalypse, you and I should hang out."

nah, i'm either too busy masturbating or too tired from masturbating.

5/25/2009 11:31:46 PM

On some level, I suppose, I was trying to say the exact same thing

Point is, we have depressingly much in common.

5/25/2009 11:32:39 PM

haha damn this got decent after my nap

5/25/2009 11:34:38 PM

this paper is the worst paper i've ever written ever in my entire life

5/25/2009 11:35:02 PM