I've never been so stressed in so many different ways by just one thing. Hard to smile today

12/30/2011 4:48:52 PM

12/30/2011 5:04:35 PM

It's becoming more and more real that I move away from Raleigh on Thursday.

I have nothing packed.

12/30/2011 5:17:11 PM

i hope the dry cleaner's is open monday.

12/30/2011 5:18:50 PM

i'm freezing

12/30/2011 5:24:00 PM

What are you doing for nye

12/30/2011 5:25:11 PM

party!

12/30/2011 5:25:59 PM

Vague!

12/30/2011 5:26:53 PM

the same party you're invited to

12/30/2011 5:28:00 PM

Ah- you making anything?

Im thinking bout bringing some chili

12/30/2011 5:29:18 PM

i haven't thought that far ahead

12/30/2011 5:30:05 PM

Well im feeling a little sick now so if that continues, i wont make anything

12/30/2011 5:33:05 PM

well i'm sure i could talk myself into making some dip

12/30/2011 5:35:32 PM

Well if you need any help pushing you in that direction, just let me know

12/30/2011 5:37:07 PM

^+1

12/30/2011 5:41:54 PM

we're making chili...but we aren't going

But one night in the not so distant future, I hope we can get a group to go to Tyler's. The new place is pretty damn nice.

Throwback song alert! Cha cha cha don't you know that I love you

[Edited on December 30, 2011 at 6:12 PM. Reason : ]

12/30/2011 6:07:00 PM

home for a week, didnt hear from you, didnt respond to my text, waited to hear from you about nye plans and heard nothing until today the day before new years when you decide to contact me and tell me you want to see me on nye

12/30/2011 8:58:04 PM

i've been down sooo much since we broke up. i feel like an emo kid

12/30/2011 9:41:33 PM

y'all weren't dating that long amirite?

12/30/2011 9:43:07 PM

is this your first real relationship?

[Edited on December 30, 2011 at 9:44 PM. Reason : those are always the worst]

12/30/2011 9:44:23 PM

only a couple months but i had convinced myself she was perfect for me, and I still haven't figured out a real reason on why it ended.

12/30/2011 9:50:06 PM

as much as you wanted a girlfriend (from the amount you talked about it on here), do you believe you would have convinced yourself any girl you dated was perfect?

or is this broad special?

12/30/2011 9:51:20 PM

My brain is mistaking boredom for hunger.
You're not hungry, damnit!

12/30/2011 9:52:13 PM

2 months? whoa dude

12/30/2011 9:54:50 PM

she truly was different from any chick i'd met. i mean, i'll be over it in a day or three in all likelihood, but i really thought i had something.

12/30/2011 9:58:43 PM

Well you don't, so quit dwelling on it, mind over matter

12/30/2011 9:59:23 PM

aha D, you unsympathetic jerk

12/30/2011 10:01:16 PM

mind over matter is like my motto, but right now that requires me to be able to clear my mind. all i feel like doing the last few days is laying in bed, watching streams on my laptop, and sleeping. luckily i'm on leave till the 3rd so i can get away with it

12/30/2011 10:05:59 PM

You should eat some ice cream and watch chick flicks

12/30/2011 10:08:28 PM

i'm drinking coffee and watching starcraft streams, so pretty much the opposite.

12/30/2011 10:10:37 PM

Go lift weights, or whatever PT the navy has you do

12/30/2011 10:14:14 PM

I'm about to pop some kettlecorn and watch "Deadly Women"

[Edited on December 30, 2011 at 10:14 PM. Reason : f]

12/30/2011 10:14:15 PM

^^i'm in charlotte on leave not on base, so i can't lift, and navy PT is generally pretty weak unless you're a diver/special warfare. i don't know if this is just me being impressive or the navy's standards for fitness being low, but the only "pt" i did the 2 months previous to my last PRT was fapping and playing video games, yet my 11:00 mile and a half, 55 pushups, and 63 situps were all considered to be "good" scores

^i read that as "i'm about to go fap"

12/30/2011 10:18:32 PM

I am so hungry and I just ate

fuck my metabolism is out of control right now

12/30/2011 10:25:13 PM

question is, do i try to get that jacket back?

12/30/2011 10:31:56 PM

Fill me in about this jacket.

12/30/2011 10:35:37 PM

nothing really special about it other than it being my "boot camp divisional jacket" and extremely comfy. standard ziphoodie otherwise.

i don't really care too too much about it, but it just popped in my head after my mom decided to pick up one of the divisional shirts that was laying around whilest doing laundry for me (one of the benefits of being home on leave)

12/30/2011 10:37:45 PM

Was it a bad breakup?

12/30/2011 10:41:04 PM

not really. there's a pretty good chance that after time passes and i'm not romantically interested in her anymore we'd be friends again. she said i'm a good guy and all, so provided she's not hiding something from me (i'm guessing there's something hidden) all that it is is just suckiness of a breakup happening.

12/30/2011 10:46:20 PM

Maybe ask for your jacket back and when you go get it back, you might be able to sit down and get some closure

12/30/2011 10:49:00 PM

good idea.

12/30/2011 10:49:28 PM

pumpkin butter is delicious

12/30/2011 11:19:51 PM

well. I'm done with Tarboro. Raleigh bound tomorrow!!

Man I can't believe that it has been two weeks since I've worked.

12/30/2011 11:22:36 PM

guess i'm cleaning tomorrow. early to bed tonight it seems...

12/30/2011 11:38:21 PM

so i'm seeing her in the morning to get that jacket, and i'm hoping she'll answer a few questions.

i just went from kinda okay to overwhelmed. lets see if i can make it out of this exchange without doing anything too stupid, without fumbling over my own words, and with any sense of resolve/closure.

12/30/2011 11:39:43 PM

i think this confession should go here too:

Quote :

"So, after reading BigEgo's comments in WAYTATVM, I have a few things I'd like to say to him anonymously. First off, I've been in this situation before, but on the other end. My best guesses as to why it ended are these: 1. She found somebody else. Sucks, but if she has given you no other indication as to why, and you genuinely have no other guess, then this is probably it. 2. There were problems you were too blind to see. Perhaps it is something she has mentioned to you over and over again but you blew it off because in your mind it was a minuscule issue. But to her it could have been a deal breaker and your obvious lack of attention to it caused the break-up. 3. She didn't have the same feelings about you that you had about her. I've been in your shoes in this case. And it BLOWS. But if this is the reason, then she is doing you both a favor ending it now rather than sticking it out just to be nice. I know you think you really want to know the reason and want to make sense of it for yourself, but any way you look at it you will be getting hurt. The reason is gonna suck and you will not understand it no matter what she says. Just don't do what my ex did. He did the same thing, wanted to meet up to exchange belongings. We met up and ended up talking for like 3-4 hours. The emotions were still so fresh and agonizing that I begin to get emotional. I didn't want to admit to him that I really just didn't have the feelings for him anymore and so out of what ultimately ended up being guilt I took him back. We stayed together another 8 months.....I was miserable, but couldn't get out of it. It wasn't fair to me or to him to stay in it but I was too scared to confront him about it again for that long. I feared that the same thing one happen. I'm not saying you would do that, but just be careful what you say/do."

[Edited on December 31, 2011 at 12:11 AM. Reason : .]

12/31/2011 12:08:30 AM

k

12/31/2011 12:08:52 AM

lesnar pwnd

12/31/2011 12:18:50 AM

ty tww for being awesome.

plan for tomorrow:
retrieve jacket
thank her
show confidence/acceptance/swagger (in the non-gangsta sense)
resolve a question or two without losing the swagger/seeming overly desperate
keep it all under 20 minutes assuming there's no "this was a big mistake" on her end kind of deal.

then i'll let a few weeks/month go by where i leave her the fuck alone, and if I still want to be with her/want to be friends or whatever i make contact again, and make it by ear from there.

12/31/2011 12:42:30 AM

Damn it, why can't this shit be easy

12/31/2011 1:10:08 AM