^^ I used to get around raleigh man. I had my pinky finger dipped in a lot of things man. You'd be surprised who I know....man

[Edited on February 22, 2008 at 11:27 PM. Reason : man]

2/22/2008 11:25:15 PM

I drink a fair amount. About five nights a week I have 2-4 drinks. Well this week I jumped on the scale and it said 190 after I've spent seven months at 185 and wanting to be 175. So now I've decided to quit drinking for awhile and see how much that helps. But when I think in my head "I'm not drinking tonight" my mind fights that notion. It's almost as if missing the opportunity to drink that night is some huge loss and I'm going to miss out on some great experience. As though there may be no tomorrow, so I should drink now.

2/22/2008 11:42:01 PM

^Yes. Rough times. I try to fight off the urge for a beer while trying to stay sober. Go to the fridge to get a dr pepper. Go back to watching my movie. After about 5 minutes i'll look at the half empty can of budweiser i'm holding, just a big "WTF" moment there.

2/22/2008 11:46:28 PM

My life is finally starting to turn around, but I'm afraid to be happy for myself. Even though I know it's unlikely that things will turn out for the worse, I can't dismiss even for a second the possibility that everything will come crashing down horribly.

2/23/2008 12:11:48 AM

^ there's a lot of people in the same boat (a little bit of myself is there too)

2/23/2008 12:14:03 AM

i can't talk to the person i want to talk to now

2/23/2008 12:16:02 AM

^ditto

2/23/2008 12:51:06 AM

i hope she's having a good time tonite


and its past my bedtime

2/23/2008 1:55:58 AM

I made a point to call out this girl in front of a group of her friends tonight because she was unexcusably disrespectful to the guy she was dating. Im reminded of it because he seemed like a nice guy and when i saw this postcard she seems like she might one day be like this woman.



Being attractive and intelligent doesn't grant somone a licence to be careless with somone whom cares about you and i swear thats what it looked like she was doing. Being rude because she thought she could get away with it and he would take it. Boggled my fucken brain

2/23/2008 2:24:43 AM

Sometimes I wish I was my brother, and then I remember how fucking awesome I am.

2/23/2008 2:26:03 AM

the broad jen is talking about sounds like a virgin broad i want to fuck

2/23/2008 4:07:21 AM

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[Edited on February 23, 2008 at 11:01 AM. Reason : .]

2/23/2008 10:56:51 AM

i've got stuff i need to do, but i was waiting until i got to 2112 posts. i'm a dork.

2/23/2008 11:10:02 AM

^ at least make that post in the palindrome thread

awesome, you did!

2/23/2008 11:10:45 AM

oh i did!

that one above was 2111

2/23/2008 11:11:11 AM

i divided by zero

2/23/2008 11:11:54 AM

2/23/2008 11:12:56 AM

i like to suck the candy coating of advil

2/23/2008 9:33:30 PM

sudafed too?

2/23/2008 9:34:04 PM

i am about to hang up a print in my room...it is called "the old guitarist" by pablo picasso

2/23/2008 10:01:29 PM

i may go out on the lake again tomorrow

2/24/2008 12:08:24 AM

^i went to the lake today and loved it

But i cryed in a pool hall. And i ran into the chick i made last nights confession about

2/24/2008 12:51:01 AM

you guys that are having trouble quitting stuff, just keep in mind that it gets so much easier as time goes on. i had to help someone through an outpatient procedure last week and go get their meds filled. literally over 100 painkillers. 2 years ago i would have stolen a ton of them blatantly and not cared what they thought. blame it on the pharmacy, hope they're too fucked up, whatever.

but it feels good to beat something like that, especially when you get to where i was that day, and you just look at the bottle and laugh and say "damn i was fucked up"

it doesnt last forever. the quitting does, but not the bad feeling.

2/24/2008 1:23:49 AM

i really liked the boobs the bartender at ruckus has...i had not seen her before but i'd definitely fuck the shit out of her...my roomie thinks she has real tits...but they looked really good...

2/24/2008 1:45:09 AM

i feel bad for hoping this


but thats not stopping me

2/24/2008 1:53:56 AM

i had sex with zorthages bitch like 7 months ago but he doesnt know til now....but he aint dating that bitch now so it dont matter

2/24/2008 1:55:28 AM

i want to eat some vagina

2/24/2008 1:59:58 AM

Quote :

"i want to eat see some a vagina"

sorry, to easy


[Edited on February 24, 2008 at 2:03 AM. Reason : a]

2/24/2008 2:01:39 AM

yes i know you are easy but does that mean you will let me eat your vagina? you would be a good one to try and eat vagina on cause i bet you know what you like

2/24/2008 2:02:52 AM

some late night posts i can jack off too but some i cant

2/24/2008 4:17:19 AM

so much to do, and i don't wanna do shit

2/24/2008 10:41:04 AM

i've been living at my new apt since feb and i just now got my mattresses on a bedframe

2/25/2008 1:10:39 AM

my roomie went to bed...now i'm going to be super bored

2/25/2008 2:58:43 AM

i can't remember dre.



please... i don't want to forget.

2/25/2008 2:59:48 AM

I'm more than a little excited about a tubber coming to see me next weekend

2/25/2008 3:32:19 AM

. . .

[Edited on February 25, 2008 at 4:32 AM. Reason : .]

2/25/2008 4:14:17 AM

I drank last night and the night before. I lasted three nights. Fuck it, i'm getting a personal trainer.

Quote :

"I'm more than a little excited about a tubber coming to see me next weekend "

You mean like a fat chick?

[Edited on February 26, 2008 at 11:28 AM. Reason : a]

2/26/2008 11:28:06 AM

ha, i just read that as tdubber

i thought bout going to see a tdubber this weekend but idk

2/26/2008 11:32:03 AM

^^it's MEEEEEEEEE!

2/26/2008 11:39:54 AM

tubgirl?

2/26/2008 11:46:05 AM

gonna try to not call women bitches or broads anymore...

2/26/2008 2:57:17 PM

I'm terrified of looking people in the eyes.

There's not one person I am completely comfortable making eye contact with; there's one I'm okay with it about most of the time; there's one where it's a sometimes thing, and most everyone else, even my best friends...I look everywhere BUT their eyes.

Sometimes I feel like people think I'm lying my ass off, and that bothers me.

It is seriously what I am most afraid of. Talk about a completely irrational fear

2/26/2008 3:45:35 PM

I would give up 5-10 years of my life to look like Jennifer Morrison

2/27/2008 1:11:57 AM

Im still haunted by these thoughts

2/27/2008 9:32:15 PM

Quote :

"My life is finally starting to turn around, but I'm afraid to be happy for myself. Even though I know it's unlikely that things will turn out for the worse, I can't dismiss even for a second the possibility that everything will come crashing down horribly. "

my entire fucking life has been like that. The moment i relax, the house of cards tumbles down again.

and the people close to me ESPECIALLY those that once were the closest to me cant fucking figure that out.

so i dont relax, i dont let myself be too happy for very long and therefore i am emotionally prepared for everything to come crashing down. It hurts a lot less if you are expecting it.

i guess i shouldnt expect anyone to really understand it.

its a defense mechanism really.

2/27/2008 9:58:20 PM

i have fallen in love w/ solitaire, vegas draw 3.

whenever i need to be studying i end up playing it. even in the fucking library.

2/27/2008 10:01:30 PM

i confess that i know the exact cocktail of medications to make the common respiratory viruses that float around more bearable

but here's the real confession


im real selective about who i enlighten with this gift

2/27/2008 10:15:35 PM

I want to do that to my cat

2/28/2008 12:08:13 AM

so at 12:20 i was planning on sending a group member some work by 2 or 3pm and it is currently 4:24am and i still have yet to send that bitch her work....but i will send it eventually.......................

2/28/2008 4:24:48 AM

Quote :

"so i dont relax, i dont let myself be too happy for very long and therefore i am emotionally prepared for everything to come crashing down. It hurts a lot less if you are expecting it. i guess i shouldnt expect anyone to really understand it. its a defense mechanism really. "

my ex girlfried is just like this and it killed our relationship

people like this will never be happy and will never let the people they want to be in a relationship with be happy either

misery loves company

[Edited on February 28, 2008 at 9:26 AM. Reason : y/e]

2/28/2008 9:18:25 AM