so...i guess this isn't as much of a confession as it is a proclamation....


it's no secret to tww or anybody else in my life....i'm getting old...

that being said...there are some things that are going to happen:

1) NO MORE YOUNG BOYS - as adorable as they are and as much fun as they can be...i'm giving them up...now, that's not to say 'younger men'....just no more <25'ish....unless it's somebody spectacular...

2) NO MORE RANDOM CLOTHES/SHOES/ACCESSORIES/ETC. - I basically had to buy a new wardrobe recently because all my other clothes were too big, but I think I have enough now...and I'm proud of myself for finally taking pride in my appearance...but a line has to be drawn somewhere....and here is that line
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3) NO MORE CRAZY $$$ SPENDING BAR NIGHTS - once again, that's not to say I won't go to the bars if an occasion arises to go...but no more getting completely hammered and spending $100 I don't remember spending....unless it's a very special occasion...

4) NO MORE RANDOM TRIPS JUST FOR THE HELL OF IT - that doesn't mean I'm going to stop traveling...I will die if I'm confined to my home and office forever....but I will put more planning and forethought into future trips...I'll be more economical and less sporadic...I have friends in lots of far off places that I like to see, but it takes me just as long to get there and costs me just as much money to visit them as it does for them to come see me...so there...

5) JUST GENERALLY STRAIGHTEN UP - deep down I'm a good girl...I always have been...maybe a little too adventurous for my upbringing, but a decent person none the less...I haven't always been an attention whoring, easy drunk that cusses like a dirty sailor...mind you...I don't make a very good goody two shoes either...but somewhere there is happy medium between the two that won't make me completely boring...and i aim to find it!


ok tww....there is it....my proclamation....I know you don't care but I needed it in writing somewhere that I would see it often...and what better place than chit chat....


so...what started out as a shitty day (well..week for the most part) isn't going to end that way....because nobody is going to fix my fuck ups and make me happy but me...

5/30/2008 11:24:23 AM

*snap*

YOU GO GIRL

I like the whole writing it down idea! I've said I was gonna do stuff too, but when you write it down, it's like for real yo.

5/30/2008 11:26:57 AM

yeah...and when you write it down and other people see it then it's like you have somebody to make you hold your self accountable for what you say

5/30/2008 11:29:34 AM

I signed up on the euphalo website. and its actually not half bad. needs more users though.

5/30/2008 11:31:03 AM

^^I dont think i ever want to hang out with you again

5/30/2008 11:44:30 AM

since i only see you like 3 times a year (at the very most) that shouldn't be an issue

[Edited on May 30, 2008 at 11:46 AM. Reason : ok...i'll make exceptions for you ]

5/30/2008 11:45:21 AM

Yeah, well thats going down to one time a year now

5/30/2008 11:46:28 AM

deal!

5/30/2008 11:47:24 AM

make one last roadtrip to me

5/30/2008 11:49:24 AM

last weekend my friend said when he got his stimulus check he wanted to use it like "bush intended" so he said he would buy something that was no less than 200 with it...i gave him a carlface immediately

5/30/2008 12:42:34 PM

Quote :

"1) NO MORE YOUNG BOYS "

Older men are FTW

5/30/2008 1:07:49 PM

I just spilled coke all over myself.

I hope no one notices. >_>;

5/30/2008 1:10:31 PM

^^Fuck yeah!

5/30/2008 1:11:24 PM

I confess i dont know WTF this text i just got from an ex is supposed to mean:

Quote :

""i hope you had a great birthday.. you know.. it's funny... i just realized why i love my boyfriend so much... he's you but 32""

compliment? diss? both?


(i dont know where else to put this)

[Edited on May 30, 2008 at 1:22 PM. Reason : e]

5/30/2008 1:22:01 PM

definitely a diss...ryanb just gave me a shitload of plants

5/30/2008 1:26:19 PM

It was like a compliment/diss

5/30/2008 1:33:00 PM

i have some thing where i want to do chicks that have power...kinda want to bwn clinton or pelosi...

sounds like shes saying he has some of your qualities and more that makes him better than you...

5/30/2008 1:37:25 PM

backhanded compliment

5/30/2008 1:37:38 PM

^ that's what LivinProof78 said!

5/30/2008 1:38:05 PM

Quote :

"Older men are FTW"

5/30/2008 1:38:23 PM

lol u see lovedyomama's post^

5/30/2008 1:38:46 PM

Quote :

"she's posted before about being on a $1.25/day food budget "

thats actually not too hard...i once ate for a dollar a day...wasnt the healthiest but it wasnt even that unhealthy...lot of small snacks that added up...banana, yogurt, oatmeal creme pie, pack of crackers, pretzels...like 1 big meal a day

[Edited on May 30, 2008 at 2:09 PM. Reason : .]

5/30/2008 1:41:33 PM

no, i hadn't

5/30/2008 1:56:20 PM

5/30/2008 2:03:55 PM

Quote :

"she's posted before about being on a $1.25/day food budget"

It was more like 2-3 dollars a day

5/30/2008 2:08:30 PM

I want a hot teacher to lay on top of me pinching my nipples and telling me to make her my sex slave.

5/30/2008 2:09:31 PM

well i finally got at least one internship i could do and its the hardest one logistically to do

5/30/2008 2:21:03 PM

I haven't done any work in like 2 hours?? Probably wont accomplish anything else for the rest of today. YAY Fridays.


Everyone says you'll miss being in school when you're done... definitely not my case.

5/30/2008 3:23:41 PM

my boss got pissed cause we finished the work early so we all left while she went to find something else for us to do

5/30/2008 3:27:31 PM

No big secret on here that I'm tackling my weight, and underlying issues.

I just had another 'ah-ha!' moment: part of the problem is that I will eat when I'm not hungry, in all its different forms. Well, when you can go days without getting hungry...it's easy to say "I think I need to eat"

I'm starting to learn some of the signs of needing to eat, even when I'm not hungry. I just wilt. Think of an engine sputtering and finally stalling. I used to never go 'oh shit. I should eat' until I was completely stalled out and nearly catatonic.

I just wish my body would go ahead and get hungry, instead of just shutting down because I'm not eating

--
I went to the grocery store barefoot. Sometimes living in Garner has its perks

5/30/2008 4:41:19 PM

how much have you lost up to now if you dont mind me asking and you dont mind answering

5/30/2008 4:42:35 PM

Quote :

"I'm starting to learn some of the signs of needing to eat, even when I'm not hungry. I just wilt. Think of an engine sputtering and finally stalling. I used to never go 'oh shit. I should eat' until I was completely stalled out and nearly catatonic."

Sorry to hear that.

I used to have a problem similar to this, but I learned to see the early early warning signs of impending doom

5/30/2008 4:43:35 PM

ok....so i did pretty good last night...

i did go out....with a bunch of old friends that happen to be under 23 year old boys and get wasted...



but they paid for everything because i'm letting them stay at my house for the weekend and i slept in my bed by myself...

i didn't even call or text anybody to line anything up...

these are major steps to recovery on my part

5/31/2008 8:21:29 AM

Quote :

"Older men are FTW"

I still believe in justice in the world largely because I know that men age better than women.

5/31/2008 8:47:59 AM

Quote :

"these are major steps to recovery on my part"

5/31/2008 10:10:52 AM

there are like 5 birds about 3 feet away and i'm trying to hardly move so they dont fly away

5/31/2008 12:06:51 PM

I need to go to lowes, walmart, and the grocery store today
I don't really want to go because I'm lazy....but at the same time, I want to get my house set up as soon as possible

5/31/2008 12:08:14 PM

imo you should go mr emce....lowes on a saturday at this time is the shit

5/31/2008 12:08:40 PM

I'm not allowing this amazing thing in my life because I'm afraid to get hurt. How does that make sense?

A questions I've ben pondering for a while....

5/31/2008 12:42:26 PM

DON'T BE A PUSS

5/31/2008 1:11:44 PM

so while in ruckus i'm like damn jens like 70 feet away, so i got a cheeseburger to go from cloos

5/31/2008 1:16:10 PM

I just got flogged

5/31/2008 1:20:55 PM

Quote :

"Older men are FTW"

^ your so crazy (figging)

5/31/2008 1:40:10 PM

^^^ YOU ARE SO FUCKING WEIRD

[Edited on May 31, 2008 at 1:43 PM. Reason : ^]

5/31/2008 1:40:46 PM

u were looking good 2day hun...i only got one quick glance though

5/31/2008 1:42:41 PM

I'm an attention whore.

5/31/2008 2:10:27 PM

I am too

Fortunately, I have someone who does his best to give me all the attention I want

5/31/2008 2:24:36 PM

i couldn't care less about what you do anymore.

5/31/2008 2:41:19 PM

I love to singa about the moona and the junea and the springa.

5/31/2008 2:41:46 PM

blasphemour and jessiejepp are internet fighting again

5/31/2008 2:42:05 PM