What was the realization, and what made it come to you?




I was grumpy when I came home from work today, and my dog was pissing me off (going into the den where he knows damn well he doesn't belong and isn't allowed). I started hitting him with the mail in my hands, much harder than I should have.

Made me realize I'm not happy with who I've been lately; and it stops tonite.

3/4/2008 12:25:24 AM

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"WHEN DARKNESS TURNS TO LIGHT"

3/4/2008 12:27:24 AM

back when I switched my major to mathematics in 2004

cuz I hated political science and had no wish to be a lawyer, yet I had always loved math

amazing how a fact can stare you in the face for so long, and yet you still miss it

3/4/2008 12:35:35 AM

on the basketball courts earlier today...

gravity is only a theory.

3/4/2008 12:39:12 AM

i realized that the girl i had a crush on isn't into me. i was originally too excited by her inviting me out with her and her friends this weekend to realize that.

i decided she's either just trying to be friendly or maybe she wants her friends to meet me to see if any of them want me. so the epiphany is that its silly to give that crush a chance. its my neighbor, that could be weird. and she seems to date a category of guy that i am not. so crush over. id rather have a cool female friend my age who knows people around town and shit to do. cause i don't really have many girls to ask advice from like i used to. like to make sure i match and to go shopping with me for shirts and ties and stuff.

thats my epiphany. that i was being silly. even if successful, it would just be weird in a week after we stopped talking cause we're nothing alike in that way

3/4/2008 12:42:24 AM

Surprise prostate exam = not fun

3/4/2008 12:45:36 AM

amac884 just killed it.

3/4/2008 12:47:59 AM

^^ That's what happens when you go to Chapel Hill.

[Edited on March 4, 2008 at 12:48 AM. Reason : -]

3/4/2008 12:48:07 AM

im gonna look up epiphany, cause the more i think about it the less i think that realizing something pretty obvious doesnt count

3/4/2008 12:51:23 AM

life sucks

3/4/2008 12:55:28 AM

a long time ago, i was homeless. really homeless, no light at the end of the tunnel, no money, the couches I surfed were no longer an option, just an alice pack on my back, and some fairly new shoes. I was standing on the corner of dixie trail and hillsborough st contemplating my situation and what I fully realized at that moment was - as I spun in a 360 - no matter which way I walked, I had equal chances. 2 months later, I walked into an apartment in cary - hidden oaks on maynard rd. Paid in full, in my name. I worked 12 hour days in The Rathskeller's kitchen 6 days a week as a prep/sautee` guy.
I ruined that pair of shoes, but I haven't seen that alice pack in 8 years either.

Moral of the Epiphany: Give yourself a chance, cause no one else will...no matter which way you go.
I am now approaching 28 years old, I am happy with my gf of 4 years(whom I fully intend on marrying), my band is a source of pride, and self-gratification, and for the first time in my life, people can lean on ME and know that I will hold firm.

3/4/2008 12:55:28 AM

my friend worked at the rat in chapel hill

3/4/2008 12:57:13 AM

That's kind of inspiring. Good for you, b.


$35!

3/4/2008 12:58:15 AM

^^^ That was probably one of the coolest things I've read on here in a long time.

[Edited on March 4, 2008 at 12:58 AM. Reason : -]

3/4/2008 12:58:28 AM

^i agree

3/4/2008 1:03:09 AM

That I was a bonafide adult. I didn't like that epiphany

3/4/2008 1:17:41 AM

thanks guys. it was hard life lesson, and i hope none of you has to go through what i did, to get to where you want to be. really. stress like that makes you old and tired in your heart.

3/4/2008 1:19:08 AM

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"^^^ That was probably one of the coolest things I've read on here in a long time. "

It really was, and I admire him so much for that.

3/4/2008 2:20:06 AM

here's an epiphany or 2 that ive had lately: bail bondsmen are illegal loan sharks backed by law enforcement, and being charged with a crime (not convicted) can easily ruin you

dont ever get charged with a crime. i got charged with a crime about 4 years ago, a felony. cost a good amount of money to get out of jail. in other words, if i didn't have access to $15,000 for the secured bond, then i had to have at least 15% of the $15,000 ($2,250) to pay a bondsman (the bondsman takes your money, and puts up the other 85%, then when your bond money is released, he keeps it all. it's basically a super high interest loan given to desperate people who would NEVER agree to the terms if they weren't in jail. actually, it would be illegal in most cases if it weren't in jail).

imagine buying a car for $15,000. and having to pay $17,250 total after interest. not so bad. unless it's a 4 month loan (and that's being generous, most cases are disposed in a month). An INSANE interest rate. In my case, a bail bondsman made $2,250 for putting up 15k for me. But, he had to put it up for 3 years, so I pretty much could have put it on a credit card and paid 2,250 in interest over those 3 years and come out the same. Might have even been cheaper if I got a personal loan from my bank. So that one wasnt quite so illegal.

Here's the kicker. For almost 4 years, that charge held over my head. For 3 years, as I applied for jobs, I was told over and over and over (at the places that actually called or interviewed me) that a charged felon had to be treated as a convicted felon IN THE EVENT i was convicted. Luckily I got hooked up with a job after 3 years... Anyway, within 4 days of the paperwork getting entered in the computer that my felony was dropped (the one that cost 15,000 to remain free pre-trial on), in those 2-3 weeks following the dropped charge, my phone BLEW up and i got so many messages about interviews and job offers. THE SECOND THE FELONY CHARGE WENT AWAY.

I even started getting calls from Arizona, and I left there almost 2 years ago and haven't sent a resume there in that long. Instantly, my life was normal again. Luckily, I found a way out of that without having to wait it all the way out.

so, moral: don't say mean stuff about the police. and if you do pot or anything that could cause you to get a felony charge (or, god forbid, a conviction), stop it while you're ahead. cause they can ruin your life. lucky for me i even had the bond money to bitch about, or i would have sat in jail for 3 years and sent out no resumes. all for something i didn't do

maybe this is bitching instead of epiphany, but its a realization of sorts, and i wanted to give a moral too

3/4/2008 2:22:22 AM

this thread might as well have read: ATTN: ambrosia1231

3/4/2008 2:22:37 AM

I'm eventually gonna have to kill jackleg.



THERE CAN ONLY BE ONE!

3/4/2008 2:23:35 AM

simonddAce

3/4/2008 2:24:50 AM

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"this thread might as well have read: ATTN: ambrosia1231"

How so?

3/4/2008 2:25:55 AM

didn't you two break up recently?

sounds like he's trying to let you know he is willing to change.

thats just my opinion

3/4/2008 2:27:08 AM

^^^ You're not doing it right

3/4/2008 2:28:23 AM

Oh, like that

Yeah, we did.

And this has nothing to do with me. Well, it does in the way that it tells me I need to be, as his friend, more supportive for him, as he deals with what's going on.

3/4/2008 2:28:45 AM

why would you have to kill me? i just wanted to warn the folks about how lucky i got to
a) have access to money
b) get a hookup job

i can only imagine all the poor innocent bastards who are sitting in jail cause they can't afford to get out pre-trial... and that's really sad. think about how hard it must be to keep up on the bills while sitting in jail. or how hard it is to defend yourself while stuck in a cell with only a copy of the charge.

shits real, yo

3/4/2008 2:33:19 AM

^ i took that advice seriously
tnx 'leg

3/4/2008 2:37:17 AM

also another epiphany is that either ambrosia or zorthage should stay away from tww instead of them trying to pretend they're still friends and that they can both handle the facade

3/4/2008 2:42:47 AM

^hahaha agreed. bye zorthage!

3/4/2008 2:44:13 AM

^^Oh, nice

3/4/2008 2:44:24 AM

i'm not the type that kicks people when they're down and jumps in and says "i told ya so" - just keep this post in mind in the future when i end up being right

3/4/2008 2:52:02 AM

Had one yesterday - the wild and drunken sexual shit I used to do a couple years ago is totally over, and I actually don't think I'll miss those days.

3/4/2008 8:16:57 AM

An athletic program is lucky to achieve one national championship, let alone two. Life's too short to focus on something that's given up on itself.

3/4/2008 8:55:03 AM

i was told about where this thread went


its lolable what you people think

3/4/2008 7:14:48 PM

this isn't really an ephiphany. well it was for me at one point. but i think otherrrrrr people need to realize it (mostly my parents who disapprove of like, every choice i make). it is stupid to be unhappy just because being unhappy is convenient. why would you choose to be unhappy because it is easy? you only live onceeeee. i don't want to miss out on my 20s and youth because i was too busy being practical and unhappy and boring.

oh and i realized this after my parents accused me of "quitting" too many things that i start. everytime you stop doing something doesn't mean you quit. you can realize that you don't like something and omg you don't have to keep doing it.

[Edited on March 4, 2008 at 7:22 PM. Reason : .]

3/4/2008 7:21:16 PM

I'VE BEEN AT THIS JOB 6 WEEKS AND I'M MORE QUALIFIED THAN 99% OF THE PEOPLE HERE.

3/4/2008 7:22:37 PM

^^

3/4/2008 7:28:59 PM

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"it is stupid to be unhappy just because being unhappy is convenient. why would you choose to be unhappy because it is easy? you only live onceeeee. i don't want to miss out on my 20s and youth because i was too busy being practical and unhappy and boring."

every time I trip acid, I feel this way
then I come down and it becomes impossible idealism again

3/4/2008 8:47:17 PM

according to the dream i had last night, i'm destined to have/want a blonde daughter and a divorce

[gotta lay off the crack]

3/4/2008 8:48:44 PM

damn my shit is small.


(my house that is.)

3/4/2008 8:49:37 PM

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"impossible idealism"

not necessarily!! granted you will prob never be 100% completely happy, you don't have to be 70% unhappy and 30% happy. you CAN keep the unhappiness to a minimum though.

3/4/2008 9:11:32 PM

my dog is fuckin' cute.

3/4/2008 9:11:57 PM

i cant afford to buy a house

3/4/2008 9:17:46 PM

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"Made me realize I'm not happy with who I've been lately; and it stops tonite."

And I bet he still jumped in your lap and licked your face afterwards. Dogs ROCK. Although I don't condone your behavior... It just shows that dogs ARE mans best friend.

3/4/2008 9:19:13 PM

it's gonna work!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

3/4/2008 9:20:04 PM